ARE YOU POSITIVE

ARE YOU POSITIVE
Growing up they always told me to be positive
So I guess it's no wonder why I became so negative
They say that other people don't have an effect on you
If that's the case then why did always react wth negativity when they told me to be positive
Back in the day I was so focused on how people would treat me
Reason being is that I was always treated like shit
So I guess it's no infer why I was losing hope
They used to call me the last hope of the family
But hope was the last thing that I ever had
Suffice it to say why should I be the last hope

Moreover if you ask me the family let me down more than I did them
In the past I was labelled unwilling
So I guess it's no wonder why I was losing the will to live
I guess it's no wonder why I wasn't willing to participate
They said the reason was because of the fact that I was reticent
Moreover they said it was because  didn't have any friends
Though little did they know that the lack of friends isn't the reason why I was unfriendly
On the other hand the reason I was unfriendly is because you weren't my friend
Truth be told I was incapable of forming friendships and I still am
They say that negative thoughts lead to negative actions

Then again why aren't these positive thoughts leading to positive action
I guess you could negate that theory of negativity or positivity
Because when push comes to shove not everything is cosmopolitan
They say that Asians are more prone to depression
So what is my prognosis doctor please tell me
Are you positive that I don't have any physiological issues
Moreover are you certain that my problems are stress related
It's often said that talking can solve ones problems
If that's the case then why haven't all these poems caught anybody's eye
Why is it that my own family are too afraid to look me in the eye

They say that they care but they have a funny way of showing it
And I don't mean to embarrass anyone because of what I write
But mum you can't always be right
You tell me to be positive but have you tried looking in the mirror first
Growing up they always told me to be positive
But all that ever led to was the complete opposite
They tell me to be positive but how is that even possible in today's climate and culture
They say the futures bright but why do they always lie
Truth is lately I've had enough of everything and every one
Hence the reason why I am positive f making a change