Here to Stay

Back in the day i had shit all
But I guess that was just gods call
On countless occasions I'd fall
But then I'd get back up with my eye on the ball
Like John wall
My aim is to be in that famous Hall
A legend like Ronnie
I'm a dragon like donnie
You can call me Clyde
Cos I'm still looking for my bonnie
I aint in it for the monnie
That's just an object
Why you always change the subject
Knowledge I inject
For you to ingest
Labels I impress
Now they want to invest
But you see I aint like the rest
Cos my heart is frozen
Bitch my soul is broken
They call me outspoken
Cos I can't keep anything in
I asked my bro and
He said do everything you can to win
Bitch i swear so fucking much
That I should wash my mouth out with detergent
Don't you know that I'm a divergent
Never been part of any faction
Don't deal in distractions
The new world order?
What about autism spectrum disorder?
They say they don't like the way I behave
To autism I'm a slave
Like Abraham I'd rather live in a cave
On the mic I'm going ham
But that shits haram
I'm the most ruthless since sadam
Maybe it's cos we the same bloodline
My work has been called divine
Life is hard to define
One second you're doing fine
The next you wish you could rewind
Time is such it's like I'm in an endless loop
Always been on my own and never in a group
Sometimes I feel like they're carrying out a coup
They call me a rebel
But all I've ever wanted is life to settle
Is this free will or is it cause and effect
They call me a terrorist but I aint from the wahabbi sect
All they do to your mind is infect
But in Islam this way is incorrect
Am I a good Muslim lately
I might be the Muslim slim shady
The futures flying cars and jet packs
But that don't mean they'll remedy jetlag
Bitch my heart is jet black
This life is killer
That's why I pick up the scissor
Take one last look in the mirror
Then I squeeze my eyes cos of the pain
Next thing blood is oozing out of my vein
I bang my head and fall
I guess dying is nobody but God's call

JANNAT

Jannat is under my mom’s feet
Mannats are promises that I can’t keep
Mohabbat is in my heart so deep
You spent your nights awake, while I was asleep
How can I repay you, there is no currency or fee
Growing up, my life was nothing but hell
They say that only time will tell
But still I have all these questions
Mother you never ever questioned me
Going forward I only answered you back impolitely
However, you just took it lightly
When I was a heavyweight
With your prayers I could elevate
And with your belief I could levitate
I showed you nothing but hate
When you love me so unconditionally
You respect me but I don’t usually
You taught me the meaning of religion
You spent your days cooking in the kitchen
I’m a grown man, but I just spend my day Bitchin
You bathed me and made sure I had a new pair of shorts
Now I’m tall, space jamming is my sport
You’re my Sonia and I’m your Steph
All you ever cared about was my health
You taught me the things that aren’t important like wealth
Mother, you’re an angel in disguise
While a devil is my guise
So pardon my doubts
Cos you’re the only reason that I’m stout
Mother, you looked after me before you’re own self
They say that you should play the cards that you’re dealt
You’re like mother Theresa, I’m like Lucifer
Nothing but a bad seed, always smoking that weed
That’s why I’ve become so weak
But you always give me strength at length
I’m like Moses, cos without your prayers I can’t climb these mountains
Ever since I can recall I have been nothing but a pain
You always seem to be there even when it rains
You’re my sunshine
Every time I see you, I almost go blind
You’re so beautiful, it blows my mind
My only wish is that I can rewind
So that I can relive my childhood
Nowadays I just spend my time in the hood, up to no good
I’m your Bruce Wayne, you’re my Martha
You’re so faultless, but not my father
Sometimes I just want to go to war in Gaza
Sometimes I just want to bomb the whole plaza
But you see the true meaning of Jihad is caring for your Mother
Who else is going to do it? It’s not going to be my so called brother
Other than you mom, all relations are fake
Real Talk, I’ve lost count of all of my mistakes
You’re always right so how can I go wrong
Jannat is under my mom’s feet, so let’s sing this song
Mother you are an angel in disguise
If you had wings it wouldn’t be a surprise
Seeing you fly isn’t hard to surmise
So pardon my doubts
Because you are the only reason that I am stout
You spend all day on your feet, even with your gout
And every time I try to give you a hand, you are like get out
You looked after 10 kids
But the way that I can’t take care of one mother really takes the piss
If I had one wish it would be a hug and a kiss, when you’re gone you’re truly going to be missed
Life is a gift, without ones mother it’s hard to get the gist
That’s why I pick up the knife and slit my wrists.