Here to Stay

Back in the day i had shit all
But I guess that was just gods call
On countless occasions I'd fall
But then I'd get back up with my eye on the ball
Like John wall
My aim is to be in that famous Hall
A legend like Ronnie
I'm a dragon like donnie
You can call me Clyde
Cos I'm still looking for my bonnie
I aint in it for the monnie
That's just an object
Why you always change the subject
Knowledge I inject
For you to ingest
Labels I impress
Now they want to invest
But you see I aint like the rest
Cos my heart is frozen
Bitch my soul is broken
They call me outspoken
Cos I can't keep anything in
I asked my bro and
He said do everything you can to win
Bitch i swear so fucking much
That I should wash my mouth out with detergent
Don't you know that I'm a divergent
Never been part of any faction
Don't deal in distractions
The new world order?
What about autism spectrum disorder?
They say they don't like the way I behave
To autism I'm a slave
Like Abraham I'd rather live in a cave
On the mic I'm going ham
But that shits haram
I'm the most ruthless since sadam
Maybe it's cos we the same bloodline
My work has been called divine
Life is hard to define
One second you're doing fine
The next you wish you could rewind
Time is such it's like I'm in an endless loop
Always been on my own and never in a group
Sometimes I feel like they're carrying out a coup
They call me a rebel
But all I've ever wanted is life to settle
Is this free will or is it cause and effect
They call me a terrorist but I aint from the wahabbi sect
All they do to your mind is infect
But in Islam this way is incorrect
Am I a good Muslim lately
I might be the Muslim slim shady
The futures flying cars and jet packs
But that don't mean they'll remedy jetlag
Bitch my heart is jet black
This life is killer
That's why I pick up the scissor
Take one last look in the mirror
Then I squeeze my eyes cos of the pain
Next thing blood is oozing out of my vein
I bang my head and fall
I guess dying is nobody but God's call