ARE YOU POSITIVE

ARE YOU POSITIVE
Growing up they always told me to be positive
So I guess it's no wonder why I became so negative
They say that other people don't have an effect on you
If that's the case then why did always react wth negativity when they told me to be positive
Back in the day I was so focused on how people would treat me
Reason being is that I was always treated like shit
So I guess it's no infer why I was losing hope
They used to call me the last hope of the family
But hope was the last thing that I ever had
Suffice it to say why should I be the last hope

Moreover if you ask me the family let me down more than I did them
In the past I was labelled unwilling
So I guess it's no wonder why I was losing the will to live
I guess it's no wonder why I wasn't willing to participate
They said the reason was because of the fact that I was reticent
Moreover they said it was because  didn't have any friends
Though little did they know that the lack of friends isn't the reason why I was unfriendly
On the other hand the reason I was unfriendly is because you weren't my friend
Truth be told I was incapable of forming friendships and I still am
They say that negative thoughts lead to negative actions

Then again why aren't these positive thoughts leading to positive action
I guess you could negate that theory of negativity or positivity
Because when push comes to shove not everything is cosmopolitan
They say that Asians are more prone to depression
So what is my prognosis doctor please tell me
Are you positive that I don't have any physiological issues
Moreover are you certain that my problems are stress related
It's often said that talking can solve ones problems
If that's the case then why haven't all these poems caught anybody's eye
Why is it that my own family are too afraid to look me in the eye

They say that they care but they have a funny way of showing it
And I don't mean to embarrass anyone because of what I write
But mum you can't always be right
You tell me to be positive but have you tried looking in the mirror first
Growing up they always told me to be positive
But all that ever led to was the complete opposite
They tell me to be positive but how is that even possible in today's climate and culture
They say the futures bright but why do they always lie
Truth is lately I've had enough of everything and every one
Hence the reason why I am positive f making a change

STAND UP

Listening to mellow beats
writing bars on repeat
Writing rhymes it ain't a feat
Stardom yeah that's my dream
But let me first come clean
I got a streak that's mean
They ask me what do I mean
I tell them I'm psycho but they don't scream
Yeah they twisted like me
In the night They don't sleep

They wake up and repeat
Love to concede defeat
My BARS got iron like meat
Everydays Halloween
Everyday is trick or treat
This day is the same as the other 52 weeks
Some people listen some people speak
Some are strong some people are weak
Some people learn for life, others teach
When it comes to the mic I like to stick in my teeth

They say you sow what you reap
The things I saw I can't unsee
Its like the unseen
Faith and belief
Sighing without relief
My life is full of grief
Hide my feelings but on the page I just leak
They say this shit is deep
But have you tried weeping without tears
Yeah that shit is deep

I'm cold inside that's why I spit heat
My rhymes ain't stand up
They're more like take a seat.
My rhymes ain't stand up
They like your life is over in a week
In a week you'll be dead and buried
You'll be six foot deep and asleep
You'll be forgotten and a memory
Life is a drug and death is the remedy
So who wants to join me to live life happy
When I'm on the mic I can just relax and be at ease
so I think it's time you be at ease too
cos I'm off now and so should you .

LION FLOW

Nothing is better than this rapping is my gift
So fuck your goat flow
I'm that lion that roars
These man's on road
But all they do is run
Pick up the gun ?
It ain't no fun
Pull the trigger ?
If you don't..........then you can be bigger

Small deeds big rewards
You a rapper ?
You is a fraud
You bow down to the money
I bow down to the Lord
Shit I don't hord
When it comes to BARS
I got a shit load

When shit hits the fan
I don't give a shit about the fans
I rap cos I'm a Big cat
I'm pissed cos this is my territory
For me rapping is elementary
Excellentary ?
Yeah I'm making up words so put them in the dictionary
Pictionary? So picture this
When I pick up the pen i just pick a beat
And make a hit to stay off the street

Pick pocket when I'm pit stopping
The pit falls? And the pin is dropping
Your Pitch is flopping
But my tone is perfect
When it comes to my tongue
Your girl gives me respect so don't get vex
Fuck wit me I'll turn into lex
Superman ? No I'm a super LION
I spit the truth But you be lying
When it comes to the goat you can keep on trying

FEELINGS

It's time for my feelings
Where are they gone
care for my life...yeah I have none
where did I go wrong
I spit fire from my tongue
I spit fire out the bong
Its time for the gong
So check the flow that I write
People show spite
Cos inside I have a sprite
Turkish delight and the red crescent
When I spit it's always effervescent
Lately I'm in my element
They all say excellent

So let's go further deep
My nightmares are afraid of me
Am I going crazy
Or was I born like this
I was born with a gift
Born to make hits
I was born with a gift
But lately I'm miffed
Off track and adrift
Progress hasn't dipped
But I ain't made a single penny
No I aint touched the henny
But I ain't sober
I'm drunk but not in love
I'm drunk but what the fuck
I'm high without the drugs
So welcome to my time
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my time
And welcome to my feelings

Share my feelings
Inside I'm screaming
Cos I'm in need of healing
They say I'm too revealing
They say I'm dreaming
But check these flows
They ain't the same as yours
I rap for a cause
You rap for you know
Fill in the blanks
I'm deadlier than a tank
So see me at the top
Y'all a bunch of flops
But it's time this stopped
It's time you were cropped
Now I've come full circle let's get back to the feelings

Angers a cancer
Hates a waste
People talk about my waist
Call me a waste
In a haste
And in my face
I think it's time you taste
Some of your medicine
Revenge ain't my element
Y'all a bunch of excrement
So I flush you out like royal
I love people loyal
People with solid soil
Girls without foundation
Yeah them girls are fly
The girls that ask why
To them girls I say bye
If you ask how I'm feeling, I'm feeling high

EPIC DREAMS EPIC NIGHTMARES

Epic dreams
All I've had.........are Epic nightmares
Monsters under my bed
Monsters in my head
Yeah these Monsters want me dead
So how am I supposed to live
When I can't forgive..... me
Myself and I
I ask myself why
But then I get by
They call me fly
Up in the sky
A little too high
Like Icarus
My hippocampus
Don't have all the answers
When I were in campus
Mood was party
When I was in college
All i thought bout was uni
Yeah i weren't in form
Get it. Fuck following norms
Aint ever had a home
Yeah im bringing the storm
Fuck gang signs
I'm sick with the ink
When I speak Bitch i don't think
You act all tough
But you aint been cuffed
All you know bout are them cufflinks
Been pushed to the brink
But I aint had no drink
Cos I'm drunk off her eyes
I'm too drunk to see her lies
Truth is I couldn't give a damn
If you with another man
Cos I'm done chasing
On the mic I'm blazing
Time is wasting
No its me that's wasting time
Yeah I'm sick with the rhymes
I'm the king of free verse
But I won't give you a free verse
Bitch there's a greater chance of you ending up in a free hearse
Bitch I'm sick like my boy tazzz
On the mic I spaz
I'm sick like my brother tazzz
Yeah he's got three Z's cos you been sleeping on him for too long
I spit the truth so how can you go wrong
I've had enough of hiding in my bedroom
Me and tazzz are like the Legion of doom
You suckas are doomed
You suckas are fools
I'm  the king like James cos I'm here to rule
Like shah Jahan
Yeh hai mera Jahan
Fuck around I'll take your jaan
Sab Kehtay mujhe pagal
Hanere jaisey badal
They call me an animal
A cannibal like hannibal
Keep your blood loss to a minimal
Cos I keep it clean like dexter Morgan 
They call me a legend like hulk hogan
So welcome to my epic dreams
I'm looking for my sleeping beauty
But I'm a beast
Eating other rappers like its a feast
Fuck a thanks and fuck a please
You can't please them all
I'm a wizard like John wall
So for now watch me disappear
They say destiny is a spear
But I have no fears
Even though death is near
Bitch check my rhymes
If they ain't legendary then it's obvious you can't hear...

MR HYDE

Yeah I need to write
Because I'm losing this fight
This world is hurting my soul
So I'm contemplating suicide
Trying to seek a better life
But I just wanna  hide
I'm sick with the formaldehyde
They call me Mr Hyde
Cos I'm selling out Parks like Rosa
Got my own chauffer
They call me a baller
Yeah I'm a king like James
They all know I spit flames
So call me a dragon
I'm going solo
So fuck a band and a wagon
Spit like a python
Y'all  a bunch of bisons
They call me a farmer
Cos I'm selling more drugs than pharma
Walk into A & E  with a cyst
Get it........ I'm a sick pharmacist
If you must I insist
My bars are hotter than mist
You will not be missed
So go ahead and decease
No I will not cease
Unless I seize..... your whole stash of hash
In and out like flash
Yeah I kill all bacteria
They respond with hysteria
Mash up the whole area
I call it Area dynamics
Yeah I'm causing panic
Cos I spit manic like a depressive
Give that g a sedative
I may forget
But I don't forgive
Got one reason to live and that it is to kill
Murdered my own brother
They said I was ill
Opened his head with a drill
Soon the whole floor was filled
So i guess he had a stroke
No this aint a joke
This shit is a true depiction
Cos I don't spit fiction
Sometimes I get these visions
So i ask myself
Are they hallucinations
Truth is I blame those hallucinogens
Carcinogens
Mix them up with fentanyl
Ethanol
I don't need a bachelor in chemistry
I send a bachelor to immortality
In other words he's passed on to the next life
Cos he was a failure in this life
Get it. I'm sick with a knife
Sick with the rhymes
The truth is sour like a lime
They say I got too much thyme on my hands
So here's my master plan
Call me your master
I don't need no plans
I just need to write
So pass me the pen
I don't need a pal or a friend
Only on the Lord I depend
This life is getting closer to the end
So I guess it's the end

HELP

Screaming for help
Its like they're deaf
and they can't hear
Its like they're blind
Am I really here
Its like I'm haunted
Why am I so bloated
I'm eating to death
So let's not sugar coat it
Sleep is my drug
Vomit on the rug
Am I anorexic
the signs are everywhere
But I guess I'm dyslexic
Epileptic 
They said. I'm autistic
I thought they said artistic
That's why I write these rhymes
They said I'm lethargic 
But I just loose track of time
Staring at my phone
Cos I don't wanna be alone
They call this a house
No its far from a home
I need assistance
Fuck persistence
Hope aint in my vocabulary
Life has been so hard
Ever since elementary
Never had no friendship
Ever since elementary
Its been a sinking ship
These people take the piss
But I couldn't give a shit
I'm spitting it how it is
No I aint fake
 so here's the news
Tryna grab the rope of hope
But is like I can't cope
They think I'm smoking dope
Cos I swear so fucking much
Wash your mouth out with soap
When i Sit there and gawp
They tell me nope
Fuck yes I'm like maybe
Strangled when I was a baby
My father was homer
That's why I'm a loner
They call me Bart
My life would make you barf
And you don't know the half
In whole I'm a nut
No ifs no buts
Yeah I can't be arsed
Playing with the words
No the words are playing with my head
Point the gun to my heart and drop dead
Sometimes I fantasise
Of leaving them a surprise
My demise
Who would it affect .
And who could cry
For help I screamed
For I had dreamed
Like a king to a slave
A slave to a king
Joy didn't ring
It just left gasping breaths on my voice mail
With death on my tail
 i was destined to fail