HELP

Screaming for help
Its like they're deaf
and they can't hear
Its like they're blind
Am I really here
Its like I'm haunted
Why am I so bloated
I'm eating to death
So let's not sugar coat it
Sleep is my drug
Vomit on the rug
Am I anorexic
the signs are everywhere
But I guess I'm dyslexic
Epileptic 
They said. I'm autistic
I thought they said artistic
That's why I write these rhymes
They said I'm lethargic 
But I just loose track of time
Staring at my phone
Cos I don't wanna be alone
They call this a house
No its far from a home
I need assistance
Fuck persistence
Hope aint in my vocabulary
Life has been so hard
Ever since elementary
Never had no friendship
Ever since elementary
Its been a sinking ship
These people take the piss
But I couldn't give a shit
I'm spitting it how it is
No I aint fake
 so here's the news
Tryna grab the rope of hope
But is like I can't cope
They think I'm smoking dope
Cos I swear so fucking much
Wash your mouth out with soap
When i Sit there and gawp
They tell me nope
Fuck yes I'm like maybe
Strangled when I was a baby
My father was homer
That's why I'm a loner
They call me Bart
My life would make you barf
And you don't know the half
In whole I'm a nut
No ifs no buts
Yeah I can't be arsed
Playing with the words
No the words are playing with my head
Point the gun to my heart and drop dead
Sometimes I fantasise
Of leaving them a surprise
My demise
Who would it affect .
And who could cry
For help I screamed
For I had dreamed
Like a king to a slave
A slave to a king
Joy didn't ring
It just left gasping breaths on my voice mail
With death on my tail
 i was destined to fail